Today, we drifted away from the academic company visits to explore the cultural and historical sites that Saigon has to offer. First, we attended a lecture on Buddhism at UEF. Although I came in previously knowing about the religion, it was fascinating to learn it through a Vietnamese way, in which culture is heavily intertwined. I could see clear overlaps with the beliefs of Buddhism and the ideologies of my Vietnamese mother, and I was incredibly happy to be given this opportunity to better understand the origins of her culture and perspectives. I have grown up Catholic; however, Buddhism is so clearly connected to the culture that even in my life, quite separated from traditional Vietnamese culture, I can still see the Buddhist ideologies in practice. Even in my beliefs, I found myself agreeing with almost the entire lecture on Buddhism philosophies.  

Next we visited the NgocHoang Pagoda, which was specific for couples who want to pray for fertility. I have only entered christian churches and synagogues, which differ quite significantly from a Pagoda. Comparatively to religious devotion that I have seen, people within the Pagoda were praying in an especially assiduous manner. Buddhists are clearly very committed to their religion, especially when considering the sacrifices they believe in.

Then, we transitioned to historical sites, such as the Reunification Palace and the War Remnants Museum. It was important that we, as Americans, visited the War Remnants Museum; however, I found it very difficult walking through and seeing the horrific photos of war crimes and Agent Orange victims. As I walked through the museum, I saw my family name, Phạm, at what felt like every turn. When I looked at gruesome images of small girls, I saw my mother’s face. I reflected deeply on my family’s troubles and felt a new level of gratitude for the life they fought to create for me. I found it impossible to separate the stories I read from my family. Additionally, as an American, I felt a great deal of shame and guilt seeing the actions of the American military. Overall, the entire day made me reflect greatly on my identity as a Vietnamese American. I am extremely elated to feel more connected to my Vietnamese culture.